The last entry was written when my Grandma was supposed to stay for a few months. She decided she wanted to go home instead... It was a sad day, but her wishes must be honored since a part of dealing with dementia is making sure the person is comfortable... She is ok now. Better, and that's good.
I've finished a discipleship training school called Elevate. You spend 11 months at the feet of Jesus and getting to know His true heart and desires for you. I was scared to death, but afraid of dying so i dove in.
There were days when depression would so consume me, that i would close my eyes and wonder if death had a feeling. I wanted nothing more than to be with Jesus forever. I thought my life was unfixable, just one huge mistake. Oh how wrong i was! And Oh how happy i am that i was wrong!
The peace that comes from hearing God speak to you is one that cannot be compared with anything i've ever experienced.
Yes, my life WAS a mess. A beautiful mess that God used to move me along and help others. I see myself so differently now. The lenses are not dark anymore. Bright, sunshiny, beautiful lenses!
I can't wait to see what's next!
